30 days and more

Assalamualaikum my little Champion,

You are 30 days old and it had been a month since i gave birth to you. You’re suppose to be born this week, but i guess you just can’t wait to see the outside world.

Past 30 days was not that easy as we still need to go to hospital to check your jaundice and also to ensure my blood pressure are control. For Mummy and daddy, getting use to wake up in the middle of the night also was not easy but we are getting a hang of it. And you also feed well as you need to nurse every 2 hours. Yes dear, so far you are fully breast fed and i intent to go on till you’re 2 yo.

I love to hear you cry because you have such a sweet cry. And among all the babies in the procedure room in the hospital, your cry is the most prominent.

After a month,  your current weight is 2.7 kg increased 300g from your birth weight. Your head circumference increase 1 cm from 33cm to 34cm and your height maintained the same.

Kakak has been very protective over you and love you so much. When we were in and out of hospital she was quiet sad as she couldn’t see me or see you. She even prayed so that we can all get back together.

Till then sayang will update more..


Hello, I am 1 month and 1 day..


You’re here…

Assalamualaikum My little Champion,

Past month was tough but we got it through…

Suddenly at 33 weeks,  Mummy was diagnosed with Pregnancy Induced Hypertension (PIH) and was warded at Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital,  under observation to control my blood pressure. You and I was warded 3 times and 3rd time Doctor Marlik decided that it is time to deliver you, because my uric acid has gone up to 448 where it should only be 350..and there’s protein in my urine..With these indications, doctor said I have preclampsia and you need to be delivered asap via ceasarean. Apparently it is a major operation to a women’s body. And I never prepared my self for recovery but I know I am willing to accept the decision for cesarean as it is for the best for you and I.

After the operation,  doctor said that it was a close call, it was either I may loose you or I loose my womb…I didn’t know that it was so serious.Doctor also said that during the operation he found out that the placenta has abrupted and there were blood clot in the placenta. As I asked Doc Google, causes of preclampsia is unknown. But I know you’re such a strong boy. So here you’re on 20th Sept 2014. You came 1 month earlier.

I was not able to see you right away because I was bedridden. I felt helpless and out of control, I was in pain but the morphine was there to help to ease the pain and for me to sleep.After the 3rd day when they took all the wires and the catheter away then I was able to get up.But without Daddy around I was not able to do anything, he has help me alot in the first week. For things that I thought he was not able to do he was there to help me to even changing my sanitary pad!💕

I was also prepared to let the hospital to give you formula milk first as I know breastmilk doesn’t come right away. It is because we were not able bond  right away. The 3rd day was the first time I saw you. Daddy took me to nursery at the hospital with me on the wheelchair as I can barely walk. The paediatrician said that your breathing was eratic so they need to warded you and put you in the incubator to help you breathe.  I was able to touch you and you were so small weighing 2.4kg. The day after was the first time I felt there’s milk in my breast. And true enough there were milk for you. At first there were not much, but the more we bond the milk start pouring in. 

We were able to go home after 6 days in the hospital with a bunch of medication for me. But we need to pay a visit to the doctors again after 4 days we got home.

My scar was healing about 70%. The OBGYN a.k.a Doc Marlik, took off the plaster and everything looks fine. Between u and me, I did not take my bath for 4 days we were at home because I was to afraid that water may sip into the plaster. It turns out the plaster was water proof. My check up went well. But as we visited your paediatrician,  Dr. Wong said you may stil be having jaundice so she ordered for a blood test. True enough your jaundice was 3.3 above the threshold of 10. So the Doctor require you to be warded to minimise the jaundice. I was able to request from Doc Marlik to admit me as well so that we won’t be far from each other. Daddy was not able to stay in the hospital together with us because I was only able to get 4 bedded room and there is no room for daddy to stay with me.

After 3rd day in the hospital, I just can’t stand staying in the hospital because it was too cold. So I decided to leave but you’re still under the photo therapy because your jaundice is at 11 and doctor still require you to be warded.  It was a hard decision to leave you at the hospital and I cried whenever i was alone but luckily Mak Tok is just nearby, so we decided to stay the night at Mak Tok’s house. The next day, at last after 4 days warded for jaundice and you were almost 2 weeks, doctor allow you to be discharge even with your jaundice of 10.9..I was so excited to take you home for good.

Next, I shall write about our experience having you at home.😆:D😄

Love you,

The 29th week and Happy Eid

Assalamualaikum My Dear Baby,

Masyallah, how can I forget to update something during Ramadhan and now it is already Syawal..

You have been a good baby and even  more active while Mummy is fasting. Although we missed only 1 day because Mummy Daddy did not wake up for sahur and I was concern for you.
I was able to prepare food for sahur and even for iftar (sometime). Nevertheless,  fasting this year is so amazing and wonderful even when I have excuses to sleep even more.heheh..
I think you have lesser space bow in my tummy. Your movement can be seen from outside of my tummy. And Daddy is amazed for Allah’s creation. You’re such an active baby. The best thing is you react to Kakak’s and Daddy’s voice.
They love to talk to you esp Kakak love you so much.

There were some sad events happening during Ramadhan 1435h. There were war going on in Gaza which started 12th July 2014 and still going on. Hope Allah have mercy on the civilians esp women and children.  Then, there was another aviation incident where Malaysian Airlines MH17 commercial plane was shot down by a missile while it was flying in Ukraine airspace. I believe by the time you read this, all these events is already a history and you do some research about it. Again, Mummy give you homework..heheheh..  I also believe that all these events have changed us as Malaysian. It is sad but life must go on. We do not forget them but we heal with time and grow with the experience.

I want you to remember when you feel sad, always thought of Allah as sadness makes you grow and Allah will always help those who ask for help and guidance.  Life will not be easy and will not be fair.  Always thank Allah for sadness and happiness He brings because of Him we exist and experiencing all that we experience now.

Last but not least in this post, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin.


Till the next posting Adik,
Love Mummy.

A year older with a few KGs heavier bundle with more love to receive and share around

Today is 11th June 2014 is my 31st birthday. First time celebrating my birthday while being pregnant.

The love I received is so overwhelming therefore I share the love with those around me.

The surprise gift from DH (i. e. Dear Husband) was a surprise although I found it not on my birthday but a few days earlier. I saw and felt the signs but totally ignored it.


How sweet is the gift. A collection worth to begin with. You can say that is so weird for a pregnant lady to ask for such a thing. Well, I wasn’t asking for it but were planning to get it in future. Nevertheless,  earlier is better. This will be so cool for our new house.

A few things I learnt from past year,
1. Allah is Great
2. Clear conscience,  being true to yourself and honest to others is sweet
3. Love your love ones but love your self more because we’re all human
4. Think 2 steps forward

There are more but can’t think of it now..

Till then,

20 weeks

Assalamualaikum My Dear Baby,

It has been 20 weeks and we have another 20 weeks to go.

Not much has been happening around us, except for some birthdays which I forgot to inform you. 1st was Nena’s which is on 16th May and Mak Long’s on 26th May.Both we had small but very meaningful celebration. For Nena’s we went to Aquaria and we had lunch at Pavillion. For Mak Long’s was just hanging out at Mak Tok’s house with 2 swimming sessions.

On daily basis, I try to cook most of the time for Daddy and Kakak. Everytime we cook, you would move inside mt tummy. Either you love cooking or it is just noisy with all the pounding and sizzles.

Other than that, we are doing alot of planning for our new house. Which also you love listening to me discussing wih Daddy.

And I think you love music . Every time you hear music you would move around. Doesn’t really matter genre of music, as long as it is good music..when I like it you will like it too. And I tend to love singing. I wasn’t like this with Kakak before. With Kakak, I study alot so no time to think about all this.

When you move, for now it is a bit ticklish as you’re only 393 gm. But wait till you’re 1 kg +…It will be a whirlpool inside my tummy. You always love to hear Kakak talking and playing, how I know? You keep moving when Kakak is around. Hope you will be good siblings in future as you need each other.

One exciting news though,  Daddy felt you the first time on 30th May 2014. It was just a simple good night wish and you responded well to Daddy. Daddy was so excited, then 5 minutes later Daddy snore away. Next one was on the 31st May 2014, Daddy thought it was just a spasm, I said nope, it was you. You know who your Daddy is…

We went for a checkup on 4th of June 2014.And Doctor Marlik confirm your gender. I hope he is right. And he wrote something on your scanned picture. L

Okay My Love, next is a special day. I will try to update you.

Till then.